yodogawa

I slept at all today. Because I got a heavy stomacadhe, I spent all of day on the bed. Althought that seems to be cured, the influence is still be left.
I seem to have the dinner from now on. Today, I ate a lot at the breakfast time.
Today is the final day of Feburuary. Even if it is the shortest day, I longed for this to have gone as soon as possible.

Actually, I came back to this position. Usually, I have to have a sort of condition to write what I want to say frankly. That is sometimes called biorhysm.
In these days, a lot of interesting people appeared in front of me on this area. That is exciting and seem to be a good day. And a girl welcome her birthday tomorrow.
It might be the beginning. Especially in Japan a lot of things will chang to be new!

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The climate is changing drastically. In this winter, I spend my hours almost at home, that doesn't make a serious problems. But even under such circumstances, it is not very easy just to go on the days.

Actually, I slept at all. My nap has changed to the real sleep almost for ten hours. I might wake up for a couple of times in the sleep. But I slept again and again. I didn't know why. But it may be because it was pretty cold in my room, or probably because I wasn't waking for a sort of time.

Anyhow, I'm thirsty and hungry, and I'll go to downstairs to eat 'breakfast' of the day.
My hair is disheveled very much because I took a bath last night and slept just a few hours later. OK, I'll read something from now on.

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Well, nothing is over here. I have done a lot of things today, and my mind is almost empty. Of course, nothing is produced by such empty mind.
I took a nap for around a quarter hour, and got up because the music sounded wrong. I checked my machine and turned off the network connection.

It is fine today. I spent a lot of time just in my room as usual. I am drinking hot-watered coffee. In Japan, such coffee is called 'American'.
I don't know why. But that is never bad, especially in the night. And the instrumental music was also good for my mind and senses. Have a good day, I say.

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I have just read a lot of my entries in Japanese. Some are good, but some are not always very good.
Probably because the winter is ending sensuously I am in the mood of remaining. The sun light is getting power day by day. While in the nice morning, I cannot help feeling that. The preparation seems to be important. I am doing that step by step.
With listening to music, I am just counting the time passing. The brighter light is curtained and has dimly red. I am also wrapped by the space.
I've just noticed that the time around this must be the time producing something. My mind is actually clearer or as in the pure water. I am seeing something in it, and can know the figure solidly. If I'm hearing the music, what sound it is!

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It is not always easy to figure out something. I am just in front of this small machine. But I am rather looking at myself to see what I am thinking. I am there.
My favorite girl seems to be still catching a cold. I looked at her page, but that is not yet renewed.
As for me, I opened another page. I've thought I came to the farther place just by a step. Sooner or later, I can show you that.
It is the time of daybreak. I've just heard a bird singing. Today, it seems to be fine. While listening, I also felt like flying. I know I can't even jump. So I wrote something between those. Actually, I'll walk just step by step.

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Yep. I am sleepy, too. I stayed up all night long. Today, I don't know what is happening. I took something back to me. I loafed on a lot for a week, and I had lost a lot for the while. It wasn't easy to recovered the lost.
But fortunately, I may be back to at least the same position. I'll walk step by step from there. I am very sleepy, but I even feel better. It is fine today although it is colder.
I closed all curtains to write this. I'm not very good at the morning sun light. I rather like the evening. My room is small but compact. I can reach most of my stuff without walking even three steps. That's better.
Because I like the view from the corridor, I usually don't see the view from the windows of my room. Both pains are of frosted glasses. Now, I finally can go to sleep.

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I am on my way. It is Monday morning. I'm interested in the market movement today.
I watched the broadband program on the Net in this night. I have enjoyed that very much. A middle aged man just talked a lot, and the viewer were able to join the talk through the bbs.
I am not afraid of this week because this is the final week of February.
I'll put some comment on my favorite page, and I think I can sleep well. By some medicine, my stomached was seemingly cured. I often got stomachache probably because of the coldness of the winter.
It is fine today, but the temperature is low. I need take care of that for awhile.

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Although it is still cold, it becomes milder and milder day by day. It rained for a couple of days, and the sky was heavily gray. I need clear sun beam.
I'm writing this with a pot of green tea. I like green tea as well as coffee. The taste and effect gives me some clear mind. And I got aware that I am a Japanese.
Even I say it it just green tea, there are a lot of kinds. And the taste is very delicate. I can enjoy that for a long time.
Of course, it was winter and so dry that I need much moisture. The green tea also gave me that.
Because it was enough light, I turned off all lights in my room. I can get just a dim light in the early morning. My mind is also floating in the air.

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It is not always easy to overcome even some small problem. A girl has noticed me that nobody is always healthy.
It is pretty hard for me to stand her condition. I can't do anything for her because she lives in the far city.
The half nap may make me feel like this. I have to get some real sleep. Even under such cold environment, I know I have to stand it just earnestly. The heat will come. I wait for only that. Until that time, the defense have to be perfect.

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I'm drinking some coffee in the cup. Before that, I ate a piece of cup-noodle in front of the stove. That warmed me up so much. I can go to sleep anytime.
A piece of CGI worked finally. It took a couple of hours.
I poured much coffee into the pot and brought it to my room. And I can drink hot coffee continuously. I have two pots and both of them were very active in this winter. I don't like to have cold coffee.
I am much sleepy at all. But that rather makes me feel good. That is never bad. I can enjoy the net-surfing with lying on the bed just before sleep. If I almost fell asleep I can sleep at all. I don't know what I may find tonight. But I'm certainly expecting.

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it is an interesting night. I spent a lot of time just for a piece of CGI. That doesn't work so much. Because of that, I thought I learned a lot about the function of CGIs.
And while I was doing that work, I noticed that I was also an engineer. After that, in the night, I spent much time for net surfing. Some albums of Jazz was supporting my way.
I also began to listen to the music of Ryuichi Sakamoto. That noticed me that it was the time to write something of the day. I also wrote a lot in Japanese about music itself. I thought I output my idea considerably.
It might be a good night because I returned to my position after some confusion. I felt I was also enjoying the work of computer engineering. Even if the small program didn't work I was concentrating on that by that extent. That returned something of me to the great position, fulfillment.

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It is much sleepier today. I looked for some interesting blogs. There are some blogs which foreigners make. They put a lot of photos in Japan. I didn't get impressed very much because those are typical viewpoint of foreigners.
I am a bit sleepier after that. It is certainly colder. I tuned the switch of the stove in my room.
　In these days I think I am just waiting for the spring to come. Because I don't like to catch a cold I have to save the zone of my activity in this cold days.
Just a cup of green tea warm me up. I also listen to some classical music. In front of such music, I noticed that I don't have to think about something so seriously.

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Actually I got up early. But today I think that is just a nap. I'll take some sleep soon after this writing.
I don't know what was happening yesterday. Recently, probably because the new spring is coming up to my city, I felt sleepy earlier than the usual days. I should do homework before going to bed. But I usually slept at all, and I have to do that after waking up.
I drank the coffee in the bottle, That is the one I made at yesterday morning. But some caffeine seems to be left in it. Because I'll sleep again soon, I don't like to make another one now.
Actually my sleep is half and doesn't make me feel good. Usually, I have done all at night.
I'm actually waiting for the spring. I need to do for a couple of weeks.

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I have a headache probably because I drank too much coffee. I tuned the electrical switch of the stove to rise up the temperature by three degrees.
It is actually winter night. I certainly felt cold. The atmosphere is the one of the last days of this season. I don't like to catch a cold.
Today, I also missed taking a bath. I'll take a bath tomorrow. Although I am a bit hungry, I will sleep soon without having anything.

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It is still colder. I'm at home. The temperature around my living city seems to go up and down.
I've taken a nap for a few hours to get up again. And after that, I got up and wrote something.
Because it is still an winter day, the light time is still far. And because I still want to listen to some mellow music, I chose the soundtrack of "Little Buddha". I'm hungry now.

I went to the dining room and ate a bowl of noodle. It was a bit tasty, and it is nice to go to sleep soon. I, as well as everybody, can't sleep if I am hungry.

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I am at home and just sleepy. I'm drinking cocoa. I'll go to sleep soon.
I wrote a tremendous lines of blog in Japanese. But when I saw some of my favorite blogs, those are going on.
Before I fell asleep, I just decided to write this one probably just for me.
Some of my acquaintances apt to deeply depend on the temporal atmosphere. I don't like to recommend such way.
I don't know what I should do right now. But it is in the deep night. All lamps of my rooms were turned off.
I noticed I have to keep something inside me toward the lands outside Japan. I must not abandon that. The comfortability around me won't keep going on eternally. So I have to have another way, too.

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It was difficult for me to understand what was happening. I went to my favorite cafe to calm me down.
With just a cup of coffee, I thought I can spend around two hours there. Because tomorrow is the national holiday, there were a lot of people there in the night. I also wanted to stay there around the ten o'clock.
I was reading novels. One is in Japanese, and the other is in English. I just would like to be in the slow time. Until a year ago, I went to the cafe more than twice a week, But now, I can just go there around three times a month.
But I think that is also enough for me because I have some saving in me.
Of course I'd like to get something interesting more.

While that is true, I am thinking about something with reading. Capturing its story, I can think and rest. The music was also kind of a key. Today, I got to know that two hours might be best. After that, I went home. It was not raining.

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"What's the matter with you, huh?" This is my question.
Anyhow, the cold winter days still kept going over here. Even if I'm almost at home, that is almost same. (I just went out to pick up my books from the car.) It was raining a little.
Because it's coldness is medium I wasn't longing for the spring to come so much. The temperature is certainly low, but didn't become lower than zero degrees Celsius. So I didn't catch a cold.
Today, I will skip taking a bath because I'm heavily sleepy. I may have to brush my teeth. I don't have to drink a glass of water before the bedtime. I don't want to wake up in the middle of the night. I think it is fine tomorrow.

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I know a lot of foreigners come to see my site to read some English pages. I should renew those as much as possible. But I didn't do that, even this blog.
Because my native tongue is Japanese, my English always fronts the limit. I felt impatient.
I know that the better way is to keep writing something every day. Or I should read much more good sentences to acquire it. But I think there is a deep difference between Japanese and English language. Probably in English I can never write anything which I'd like to say in Japanese. So if I write something in English, that is always different from what I firstly get.
So no matter how hard I made effort, this skill is something like chess skill. Japanese board game "shogi" is very different from chess.
But I also know that when I got out of Japan even a step I have to communicate by such chess method. That is the deepest dilemma.

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I know most foreigners cannot read Japanese. But sometime I forgot to write this English blog. Every time the contents is slightly different from Japanese one. I write my idea just as I wish.
Although it is just after the noon in Japan time, I'm already sleepy. I ate my fill. That might be why.
It is a winter day. But I like this daytime. It will be never hot no matter how brightly the sun shines. I will take a nap, but it might become a real sleep. I'll take a bath after that. I'm very sleepy and it is a bit warmer day, and there is something interesting.

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While I'm listening to my favorite music, I returned to this place. Now, I think this is really my place.
I've already eaten lunch. It is fine today. It is much warmer in the afternoon. Because it was colder in this early morning, I was actually afraid how much it would become colder today.
Now, I am at home in my room. I got much spare time after a couple of days. It is probably very good, probably...
But during this busy time, I lost a lot of interesting and important things. I don't know what it was. But it is actually certain that I have to gather those one by one, each by each. Even if it takes long time just to return to the original position.

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It might be easier to write this by the power of writing Japanese one.
It's the coldest day in this winter today. So I'm enclosed in my room. My stove is powered by some oil, not by electricity or gas. It's enough to warm up my small room. Because I stayed up all night, I'm looking for the time to go to bed. Of course, I'm sitting on the bed because my bed is in place of the chair.
According to the weather report, the Siberian cold air mass is coming to Japanese islands. Actually, sort of strong wind blows hard. I don't like to open the window, so I don't know the actual coldness.
But, probably after this strong wind stopped, I'll have to open the window once to change the air.

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