yodogawa

It's time to sleep. I'm going to sleep from now on. I think I can see good dream tonight. With this cup of instant coffee, I can taste this with that memory. I can notice that I don't have to forget her by force. Rather I can enjoy the scene.
From tonight, I don't need beer and junk food. It might return to healthy life. There is a Japanese proverb, saying "Strike while the iron is hot.". I might strike it and make that thiner and longer.
The calling was nice, actually. It gave me something to go to the next step. Soon I can get into the next month, December. And it's also the final month of the year.
"What's going on today?"
"Maybe, I'm also going on."

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I'd like to listen to some music in the air. Basically, that is far from my ear. If I like to listen to it earnestly, I have to go to another table. But,anyway, I put my earphone into my bag. Actually, it makes my nerves be in the vivid condition.
Today, I also called a cafe at the Birmingham. Maybe the owner of the shop answered my call. The quality of the voice is different from the ones of shoppers of the chain store.

I'm surprised at the fact that there is a girl among the shoppers in this shop. At first, I've thought that all the shoppers of this shop are new face.
That actually delighted me.
Today, I'll take a bath. And I may pass the drinking a can of beer. Little by little, the music is coming into my ears. But I don't have much time to stay here because the parking lot closed at ten o'clock. I have just ten minutes.
Next time, I may be able to get more time to stay here. This shop is closing at the midnight. It is the latest place around here. But today, I have to go now.

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I decided a sort of idea. This year has just a month. I will spend it day by day. I don't seems to have to hurry up. I can just go step by step.
I also seems to be able to have spent a day. Today, I drank a smallest can of beer with a pack of potato chips. That was never bad. I could take a nap after that for awhile. But after that, I don't remember what I did.

After some talks on the phone, I went downstairs. I made a cup of hot milk. I warmed it up for three and half minutes by the microwave. It was enough. I went upstairs, too. It just passed four o'clock in the early morning. I thought I could write my weblog. The talk might give me a sort of power. Today, I wrote firstly the Japanese article. Because it is my mother tongue, and it is better for me to express my emotion. My emotion, actually, flew out of myself through my both hands, ten fingers, typed.
That was actually slow stream. Recently, I can read my article just after writing. Anyhow, I just reflect my emotion without dramatizing.

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Today I try to write this blog at first than Japanese one.
Usually, I wrote Japanese articles at first. But recently I got many opportunities to make some phone calls in English. So my resistance to English becomes smaller and smaller day by day.

Tonight I came to a cafe near the nearest station. Because there is a foreign language university in this city, there are also a lot of foreign students. They might like this style of cafe because there are also a lot of this cafe probably in US and Canada.

The music in the air is the one of the up-tempo. That is not my favorite type. I like mid or slow tempo of jazz.

I didn't bring any books here today. Today, I came here just for my writing. The parking lot will close at ten pm.

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It is actually a simple night. I can just be having passed it. The space in front of me is actually here. I don't know whether or not that is moving. It seems as if it is eternal.

I know I have to get up in this morning. I'll make a call.

Tonight, I noticed that my English is near to Californian style. If I call, mine can be communicating with the persons more than the ones in East coast.

I think the persons in the California are much more frank. Yeah, I can talk with them more frankly.

I'm never sleepy now. If I get up early this morning, I might be able to have sleep for around three hours.

Today, I went to a bookstore near the station. I bought a magazine “Kansai Timeout”. This includes a lot of information. I need most of it. Those might be useful for my business, too. Osaka is located at the Kansai area in Japan.

Yep. I read it seriously. I might I know a lot. The magazine is sometimes useful.

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I'm just in my room. I drank a cup of coffee. Although it is becoming December in a week, it isn't cold at all in the early morning.

I think about the contents of a letter for awhile. But that will be never.
It consists of Japanese sentences in my heart. But at least now, I'm never going to be put the words as it is anyplace. In place of that, I can translate that in my hear to English.

“Dear M
You cannot worry about me or what I do. I just wrote this letter for you to be relived. When I translate your works, I'm not so conscious. But day by day, something inside your work captured my heart.
I just took over such work with light mind. I didn't think about it or its influence seriously.

I don't say Good Bye to you. Why?

Last night, I tried to forget you many times. When I sipped the instant coffee in the cup, I noticed that its taste was almost same as what I drank at the cafe with you. And at that moment, I also knew that I don't have to lose my memories.
“That is not the problem of a choice between two things. I can just enjoy the taste of the coffee and see that memory or your figure then there.”

Have a nice day. Tomorrow will have another wind.”

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Rather I have to make sure that this blog is public. Everybody on the net can see it. But sometime I'm unconscious about that. And I wrote too much private aspects of my life. I shouldn't make persons worry about me.
Tonight I will call some companies in New York for my business talk. That'll be just for exercise, not for real business. But I know I can collect much data from such operation. And because I have an IP phone, its cost is almost same as the fee in this city. That'll be very nice.

It is nine-thirty in the night. When I checked the world clock on the web, it is still seven-thirty in the morning in New York. I have two hours more for my calling. It is quite a long.
In place of that, I checked the clock again and called London for some times. But most of them aren't working during the lunch time, and nobody answered my call.

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Almost all things have gone. But I know everything passes. What should I see? I don't know. But I know I need to find another light. And that must be real one, not virtual. I thought I saw the difference between real and virtual thing.

Remember. This article is also public. And inside that, there is a big risk. Today, I knew that risk itself. But I need to go forward. No matter how much risk there is, I cannot stop with such fear.

I know all the things came to end. But I also know there is still real world in front of me. And I just walk not with having to.

I will see another thing with coming days.

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Unintentionally, I had to put sort of long interval on my weblog. Although I had to manage to pass this couple of days, it was never easy. I didn't have much immunity to this kind experience.
But I seemed to pass such time and learned a lot of things. To kill my time till the time, I saw a lot of movies. "King of minami" has fifty titles. I mostly depend on those emotionally.
While seeing those videos, I drank a can of beer and a pack of junk food for each one. I know I cannot be always at her beck and call. But I also know such mind is the center of this affair. I have to control myself within this whirlpool.

I may stay up all night. Rather, I need a cup of coffee.
I brought a cup of coffee upstairs to my room. It is one of the good way to warm myself. But soon I may be able to take a nap for awhile. It already passed one o'clock in the morning, and my nerves condition suits to that.

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I use this software for the first time. It's faster than normal notepad. Amazing. I like this one.
But I may need tune this one specially for writing Japanese characters on it. But it seems to be possible.
For a couple of days, I'm too nervous. I don't know the accurate cause. It consists of several aspects, possibly.
To relive from that, I came to this coffee shop. But I didn't order coffee but a cup of white chocolate mocha.
Rather, I need some alcoholic water to relive my nerves. It might be a nice, good idea. Before doing that, I'd like to finish the writing weblogs of the day.
This shop will close at ten-thirty o'clock in the night. I have thirty more minutes. But because I have already written my Japanese weblog before this, I can do anything after this writing. Today, I'd like to drink a can of beer. It might be a nice trial.
Yeah, a pack of junk food might be also nice with drinking beer. In this season, even beer can warm me and my nerves up.
Today, I didn't bring any books here, and that might be correct. I rather need to spit out what I've been thinking.

Now, I've got a cup of iced water. It's free, actually. I have just a quarter hour to leave this shop.

Tomorrow, I'll go to the kiku doll exhibition. It would be final. The exhibition itself end at this year because there aren't enough successor of kiku designer.

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Maybe, it's time to go, but maybe not. The length of the night might decide it. And I still have some more spare time till the morning. I checked or took a look at the world clock on the web.
Maybe, I'll do just a trial. But it's the important, first trial.
I looked for the scissors but didn't find it. I'd like to cut the hairs on my hand. Probably because it is becoming winter, those are to be longer and longer.

I came back to write this blog constantly. I might be able to put several technical works later, or even interrupt it for this while.

A bike of delivering morning newspapers is coming around in this residential district. It's one of the reports of the new morning to be coming. But in this season, I have some more time till the time of sunrising. So I can make another trial. It's time to go.

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Anyhow, I returned to this page. I might have a couple of days' interval.
It is already early in the morning. I'd like to write this before seven. At around five o'clock, it was coldest in the day. But I've already passed such time.
I used these few days to try to tune fax for IP telephone. But it isn't done. I noticed that the adapter is not for that.
It is Sunday today in Japan. But because I stayed up all night, I go to sleep soon. It was too cold in the night. So it is better for some sleep in the morning.
After the long interval, I am hearing the voices of some birds. The number is fewer than those in the spring actually. But it's OK.
I have just ten minutes to seven. I may read aloud sutra with my parents in front of the a family altar. it's our custom. So uless I'm sleeping in the morning, I also do that usually.
Some birds has gone, or I'm rather listening to the music.

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I'm just sleepy. It was awkwardly. I ate a piece of boiled egg and a cup of noodle. Because I did a lot of work, I may be able to sleep well. And I may have long hours for my sleep.
It is actually at a dawn. I may like these hours. It is the days just before winter. In the winter, I cannot enjoy my time like this.
Recently, it becomes difficult to be getting up in the morning, not only by the law temperature but also by my mental condition. I need at least an hour with reading to recover normal condition. And by the coffee in the morning, I can get into my daily figure.
I may sleepy and have some time till the daybreak. I'm going to sleep soon. Today, I actually did a lot.

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I spent a lot of time just to keep off the heavy thinking. It was also a day. There was not so special happenings.
Actually, I made a phone call. It was one of the cause. But it is already a quarter past one in the morning, I may go to sleep anytime.
Writing this one might also be something. I swing at the ball and missed.
Tomorrow is also one day and the day is already beginning.
I am not sleepy. It might be one of the heavy days. But I know I can also overcome it.
I know a girl. And recently, I noticed that she has a careless aspect. She looks cute and has some creative aspect, too. But she doesn't have scrupulous character. Whenever I know such aspects of hers, I usually get surprised. But someday, I can get that as her natural and fresh aspect.

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I don't have much time. I'd like to go out of here just after eight-thirty o'clock.
Because I'm not accustomed to this software, word pad, I cannot chose my favorite font yet.
I'm at a cafe in the neighbor of my nearest station. And I parked it at the parking lot of the public library.

The inner design of the shop is changed at all, and it is not comfortable for me yet. And all of the lights are too sharp. It's never better for my nerves.
The coffee of the day is too strong.

I may go home soon. And I'll soon be accustomed to this condition. Before this coming, I usually read
some books. Writing is the reverse way. That might also be the cause.

I checked the battery meter right now. It still has more than eighty minutes. But I just have to go home now.

This writing might be continued just before my going into the nap.

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I'm a bit sleepy. I think I can sleep well tonight, too. I closed the window in my room. It is colder.
I might be accustomed to this autumn environment. I am preparing for the coming winter day by day.

Today, I went outside. I looked around minutely a lot of place along the shopping street. I may go for work soon to collect much data over there.

I know that the writing quality of today isn't very good. I had better go to bed rather. But to get some good sleep, I need writing my mind.

As my new declaration, I'll start podcasting soon.

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Anyhow, I posted my daily blog of Japanese version just a moment ago. I wrote very long one.
It was fine today. In Japan, there is a weather word, "autumn fineness". Actually, there was no clouds in the sky at least in my living city. And I was able to enjoy the twilight. At dusk, I went to the park af the riverbed. Some people came to make their dogs walk around. Because it was already dark, some dogs was coming near to walking me. But all of them were so small that I don't feel fear.
I took some photos. But it become dark soon, I went home after fifteen minutes' walking.

Well, it's good for me to go to bed right now. But actually, I have to go to the washroom downstairs to brush my teeth.

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