mode
It takes long time to return to the orignal mode. The mode is to produce somethning. Maybe, I made the mode itself from scratch. It must be something like fabrication.
No matter what that is, I think that is the point where I should be or where I can be in the calm. It's actually time while I'm straring at myself.
Even if that is just a fabrication, it's actually like shoal in the river.
And even if I let it be, the writing itself takes my time too long. It becomes harder and harder day by day to share my time for this. But I also know it is not very good to have so long interval.
But I also noticed that this might also be the good pace for me.