yodogawa

In the early morning, I got some time for this blogging. It might be lucky. I might have thirty more minutes. And that is enough.

I was able to spend last night at my favorite cafes. I like to read over there, listening to my favorite kind of music. But I was a bit sleepy and in sort of naive condition, so nervous.
At first ten minuses or so, some cats came to walk outside of the transparent glass wall and that calmed down myself.
I began to read again with a cup of maccha cream frappuccino.

I know it's cool in the early morning. At around seven o'clock, a lot of cicadas began to chirr. Cicada has six years larva stage and just around two weeks imago stage. So most of their life is spent under the ground. Flowery term is just in a moment.

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In my younger days, while I was getting out of this country, it was so valuable time. In this country, nobody can be the center if he/she is young.
Contrary to the younger persons around me, such situation is similar as my days. And anybody would like to be the center.

Apart from such fruitless topic, I also have to find something fertile. Whenever I wrote something especially in English, a foreign language, I can have so important hours for thinking. Without writing, I may be unable to organize my mind such way.

Contrary to that, a lot of silly or agony stuff in my mind are coming out of my mind while I'm writing. I bite my fingers to calm down myself.

I took in the songs in the album of Chet Baker. It includes "Autumn Leaves" and several songs. Sometimes I need songs with words. His style of sining is well strained and I don't have to have different feeling.

I'll try to listen to that album later on.

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I'm lack of energy, actually. I'm already exhausted although I didn't do anything at all. I was lying on the bed for a couple of hours just for some rest. Or I took a sort of long nap.
Day by day, summer days are going on in front of me. I think I'm looking at something, but I usually lost what I saw just a few hours ago. Maybe, I have to do some training just from walking, Yeah, I might have lost the way how to walk. Is it difficult, or not?

I may have sort of confusion in my head. Nothing is clear. So I have to see something much consciously. But I'm having lost what I see with time passing on.

I need to go for walk actually. Soon I go to the convenience store before the morning to come. I don like to be delay to go. So I put my pen over here. Recently, it becomes difficult to share my time for this English blog. But I'll try this again anyway.

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Waking up little by little, I'm looking at this view. It is actually in the middle of the morning. I'm not so good at such hours. I keep my mind just by keeping listening to the music earnestly by my ears. Almost all my consciousness is apt to be going away from me by this hottest environment.
I took off the contact lenses for some while, and put on the half-broken eyeglasses. Finally I can make some preparation for the sleep. Finally I also seem to be able to get to the end of a day. It was quite long by staying up all day long for my work.
I count the time passing on in front of me just by following some piano music. It has pieces, so I can also count it.

I lost what I'd been thinking about. It always floats and easily flew away. So I'm pondering or just seeing daydream. It's like a flying mayfly or heat haze.

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To some interest, I came back to write. It's in the early morning. Of course, I'd like to sleep more if possible. By writing something in my head, my consciousness would be fine. It's as if the mist is scattered.
It's still Wednesday and I have some days till the weekend. It seems long, longer than the usual week.
I'm recovering, actually, from sort of hard work I've just finished a day before. So I was in the hollow mind.

The thick curtain is not for this summer, and I like to get another one. But if I sleep in the daytime, I need this one to darken my room.

I seem to have thirty more minutes. Because Japan doesn't have the daylight saving time, it is already too light at five o'clock in the morning on July days. So it doesn't have good atmosphere to enjoy in the early morning.
Although it is still before six o'clock, I seem to have to make some preparation without necessity.

On the other hand, I may close the curtain soon.

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i'm going to the next step. It took a bit longer time. But I managed to finish that. I can go to sleep soon. That's sort of lucky.
Tonight it seems I can sleep well. I've finished pending work. I'd like to get rather longer sleep. It is not yet so hot.
A cup of maccha frappuccino is accompaniment of my reading. I spent around two hours there. Although there are a lot of noisy customers, I can concentrate on the books. After I got out of cafe, I went to another one. It's open till midnight.

On my way home, it was smooth. After that, I spent more than three hours for my pending work.

A newspaper delivery bike is going around this residential district. Although it's still dark, that is the sign of the coming morning. I usually go to sleep while dawn.

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Actually, it takes time. I also don't like to waste my time. But what is useless isn't decided yet.
Especially when writing foreign language, I have to organize my idea. It makes my mind clear. I may need such time.
I am very sleepy and need to give priority to going to bed. I'm using my bed as my chair all the time and I can lie down on it anytime. I might have used my wooden bed for more than twenty years and I think I can sleep well only on this bed. Although it has small hole I'll keep using it. I don need any new bed.

I'd like to lie down on my bed at least before three in the morning. I have just ten more minutes. It's rather cool night tonight possibly because of the heavy rain in the early night. I'm just using the fan by the weak mode.

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Because it has nothing to do with my life, I can do that.
I'm listening to jazz and itself has no direct connection with my life. I can hear it as music without age concern.
I'd like to enjoy the dialog between me and the musician. Usually, I don't need any words. If there is just music, that is enough.
Possibly that is the wing to fly away.

Today I bought two books at a real bookstore. I don't like to use my time such way. Because there is no database, I may be unable to find what I want. I'll buy next book at an online store. It was actually emergency.

When I noticed, it already passed midnight. It's good time for me to sleep. Today is something special, Sunday. Sort of special feeling kept on from the morning. It's sort of magical.

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