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I'm not in the good condition even in the purely physical part. My fatigue has never gone for a couple of days. It is also difficult even just to figure out what it is. I cannot make choose of whether to go home or not. Actually, this is unusual fatigue.

When I looked at the process of the game of my favorite baseball team Hanshin Tigers, they have got some points. I feel better at the moment. I might manage to keep staying here till ten o'clock. I also have sort of acute stomachache. I have to overcome several problems just for this couple of hours.

I feel a bit better than just half an hour before. The number of customers increases.

It is also valuable just to have some rest or possibly becomes the sole object.

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This August has just two more days. There were also days when I was in a bad condition. A girl, the type I don't like, has gone from the place in front of me. I absorbed deeply once and for all.

I have no time to feel the end of this summer. I know the time is just going on although it has a lot of colorful aspects.

Possibly because I am too sensitive, I have no other way to escape from such feeling.

If I open this editor, I do that for this writing. But I always think about other stuff for so long.

I feel sleepy at any place. There is also other way. I'm always lack of something. I don't know what it is.

A lot of strangers are surrounding me. I need to find somebody whom I know well.

There are some pictures on the wall. The description is the base. I'll use
the drawing software later on. Sometimes it is the object to calm down. But if
I'm in such condition, I'm going to search something different. It is infinite.

This computer is like a soroban and never something beyond that. I already
finished the drink in my bottle. Last time when I came here, I thought about
buying a cup of coffee. It is still before seven o'clock. I have plenty of
time till when I go home. So this time I'll buy a cup of hot coffee just to
wake me up at all.

Although I'm not so hungry, it is sure to be in the dinner time.

By making my concentration on my ears, I listen to the music from my nano. Only
by giving such state to my nerves, I can make conscious of something rather
clearly contrary to that.

I may need another piece of battery. Only by my own energy, I'm getting out of
something silly condition. I'm waking up actually. I feel different.

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Finally, I reached to the temporary conclusion. I've just got out of such sort of infinite loop.

Rarely, I have enough time to stay here. I have two more hours. It is Saturday today.
I'd like to lie down on this sofa even if here is one of the cafe.

I don like to hurry. But I've already become sleepy at all. I need a cup of coffee. I have no way to be getting out of this condition.

Sometimes it's also better to save what I'd like to say for a couple of days. And I bring that to this place for the expression. Writing is like swimming in the sea.

I might also need to have time for listening to the different kind of music. If I come here, I can get such from my ears.

This machine is going out of battery soon. Probably I'll change to reading. It might be good time for me to do that, The indication says it has just five minutes.

A girl is also sleeping on this music. I might stay here five more minutes. I'm getting enjoy on this condition. I'm waking up finally. I'm getting back my own perspiration. It took around two hours.

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It looks simple, but such things are sometimes difficult. Especially as for writing, I cannot use any automatic way. I have to type each character.
On such condition, I came back to this place anyway. I'm sleepy as usual even in daytime. No matter how much coffee I drank, that isn't changed.
It is not time to go somewhere. I just do some tasks which I planned. It is like walking. If I don't have any vehicle, I simply walk to the destination step by step.

Just to stand in this hot summer, I'm already exhausted. While I'm in such condition, I may have to find one thing among a lot of stuff to do.

Actually, just by sitting on my bed, I can be tired so much. I may need some nice beverage. There is no magical water.

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I keep doing something in front of me tenaciously. It seems to be just killing time. It might be true. But that's also OK in this situation. I just need to wait. It isn't time to go yet. I don't need any movement right now.

Probably after this blogging, I can go to sleep well. It becomes cooler in my room. I don't need to wait for the morning to come.

Even a cup of instant coffee is better for me right now. It's already lukewarm. I may need to close the windows. I'm looking for the nail cutter. There is no nail cutter in my room. I don't like to bite my nails anymore.

I have to brush my teeth before sleep. I don't feel like going downstairs just to do that. But anyhow I need to do that for my next wakeup.

I fond my nail cutter finally. I cut my nails right away.

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Contrary to my expectation, it was easy to write today's Japanese blog. I've gotten set to do.
Anyhow, I also noticed that I've seriously depended on English. I'd like to guard myself from too logical Japanese articles. I chose to read similar articles in English. Even if English is a foreign language for me, I might possibly have to do that. By such way, I can absorb several nice literal Japanese. That's what I really need.

With writing this, I feel like being able to sleep soon. Little by little, I spend days in front of me. I know I have no other way. But one smile is something like a happening. Or it's the only one I remember today. I don't know whether or not it's a forced smile. That is not a problem because it is happening.

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Waiting for something, I'm just in my room. My mind is thin but never empty as that when I float on the river. I'm just looking up at the sky. While I'm floating, several white clouds are also afloat.

I'll go to sleep soon without a cup of miso soup. I might need a cup because my blood pressure is in so low. I know my fatigue is coming from that. Just to sleep, I need some physical energy. I might go downstairs after this blogging. I have to recover at least my physical condition.

My mind is just following the sequence of playing piano. The music sounds as if piano itself is playing. Even if I'm still awake, my mind is almost already in some dream. It is rather seeing another image rising in my mind rather than the view in front of my eyes.

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My room got cool down by the effect of cooler machine. I seem to be able to sleep soon.
Something is going to happen. There is uneasy air around me tonight. But I'll get sound sleep.
If you figure out what it is, nothing is to be afraid of.
I know I can sleep well for awhile. I'd like to leap a day to the day after tomorrow.

Because it is already dawn, a new day is beginning. The earth is rotating. Something ought to be special. Anything passes, and I lost what it was.

It is slow or fast. Recently it is too fast actually. I may need another month to figure out what it is. But what is time. If all things are going on, I cannot capture anything at all. But one month later, something is interesting.

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It's just passed midnight. I hang in there on this Saturday. It was hot enough, but I could use the starbacks coffee as if it was a library. I spent there around three hours just with a cup of maccha cream frappuccino..
I gave the priority to reading some books of these days subject. Because one of them is so thick, I need physical time to finish. And I think I need to read three times no matter how thick the book is.

It was actually a hot day. It is a day in the middle of summer. It is plain to be hot. I envy something, But it is also true I have to catch up some while this vacation. There are a lot of times when I get lost.

I've almost finished a cup of coffee. Because it already passed midnight, I can sleep at any time. It's not so hot because I'm already accustomed to this summer. It's just passed midnight. I hang in there on this Saturday. It was hot enough, but I could use the starbacks coffee as if it was a library. I spent there around three hours just with a cup of maccha cream frappuccino..
I gave the priority to reading some books of these days subject. Because one of them is so thick, I need physical time to finish. And I think I need to read three times no matter how thick the book is.

It was actually a hot day. It is a day in the middle of summer. It is plain to be hot. I envy something, But it is also true I have to catch up some while this vacation. There are a lot of times when I get lost.

I've almost finished a cup of coffee. Because it already passed midnight, I can sleep at any time. It's not so hot because I'm already accustomed to this summer.

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I know it's time. I had much rest today but I need much more. Without doing anything, I have fatigue because of doing in the summer heat. I'll go to sleep soon after several trackbacking.

To take some rest is always important for my life. But sometime it becomes more than half of my time. And I've got various kind of ways to do that. Or rather I'm a sort of expert.

But in summer time, no matter how much I take rest, I feel fatigue. Only while I'm sleeping, I could forget such feel. Actually, I also saw several strange dream.
I know it's time to go to the dreamy world. Something is infinite.

I've finished a cup of instant coffee. I usually leave it unfinished. When I notice, it's almost three in the morning.

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