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I'm a bit sleepy. Rather I have to see the future from now on. I need both physical and mental power for that. I am just waiting for that. A cup of coffee has much quantity for my time. I have one hour over here. It is already having sort of effect in me. Little by little, I'm actually recovering my condition. I'm getting out of sort of serious condition. I'm actually absorbing mentally for this while.
Although nothing special happens, a lot of problems may happen in mind. At such time, I usually spend my time in something different, but dependable place. It might be kind of lucky I have this place. Right now, just waiting is my first priority. The objective is time.
I shouldn't sleep here. But I'm too sleepy by the effect of coffee. I decided to listen to the music from my ipod-nano. There are a lot of my familiar music in it. Anyhow, I have just another thirty minutes. I'm already seeing one goal.

Rather, I'm thinking about the minute aspects. I may have chance to take care of those through this machine. Although this machine is simple, once this has connection to the Internet, this connects to the persons behind other machines.

I have small minutes over here yet. What I'm lacking of right now is baseball. I'd like to mind the process of the game of Hanshin Tigers every night. Usually, Monday has no baseball game. So I have no pleasure in Monday night.

I feel this light brighter than when I came here just two hours before. It is interesting effect. Actually I took some rest here. To take rest is the only objective I came here. I might have done that. I have been waiting for.

Two minutes. One minute is left. I'm as if going back on my time for recovering a lot. And it's time to go, home.

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I know I can do a lot in an hour from the last visiting. An hour is longer than our expectation.
If I do nothing, it is just a moment. But if I do something, I can do a lot.
Because the music in the shop isn't my favorite type, I put on the earphone to listen to the music from my ipod-nano. A piece of the music of Bill Evens flows into my ears and to my mind.

Tonight I'd rather like to be calm down. I have a lot to do till the next morning. Today just has half an hour.

Beyond such expectation, the time after the midnight is also long. I may also do a lot till the daybreak. An hours has passed from the time when I parked my car at a parking lot near here. I have a card and it indicates 22:40. So I have one more hour over here.

I moved from a chair in the coffee shop to the chair in the bookstore just because I like the quieter place. I don't remember what I should have written. That is something about today's incident.

Today I borrowed a DVD "Remains of a day". I have a memories about this. The incident was around ten years ago. When I was in San Francisco, I borrowed the original book 'remains of a day' at the San Francisco public library. The books is so withered and its surface paper was broken. I didn't know why this kind book was so read by a lot of people because I borrowed that just by the writer's name "Kazuo Ishiguro". By my English skill then, I couldn't understand its contents very much.

Recently, I have some chance to read the interview article of Kazuo Ishiguro in Japanese. I knew his basic thought and personality for the first time. And I have a lot interest in him and his works again.

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This might become sort of routine work. Right now, I don't have any good other way. I know this place is lack of something. Even if this place has something very good to spend my time, here isn't our place. No matter how much I think about that, easy way is also different from that.

To stop thinking I also stopped to walk. If I stay here, nothing might appear in front of me. I always find something on the Net rather than on the street. When such thing began? Something between the time and now are lost.

I'm very sleepy. Probably the answer is shown in my dream. But at the moment when I woke up, everything would be lost.

The feeling while walking on the street has something special. And only such place gives me sort of different feel, waking me up. I will go somewhere I know.

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I have plenty of time. I'm on the chair outside the cafe. The coffee tastes bitter. I don't have any piece of cookie. Maybe I need one piece. At a place like this, I always feel sleepy. I may look for another place. It is possible that I looked for the placed like here. Today's destination of my walking is this place. No matter how sleepy I am, I can stay here for more while.

Although I'm sleep, this time should be special. While walking, I might expect the time like this. Even if I have one more hour here, it is not eternal. It is ten o'clock. I like a couple of hours from this time in a day.

Most writers might enjoy the time like this. By thinking a lot, they write line by line. Doing something like this, I'm also able to wait for the closing time.

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It might be sort of delicate time. I'm rather more sensitive than usual. It's still ten-thirty. I have plenty of time tonight. I don have to be too nervous. I might have passed something serious in my mind. A lot of people are coming and it is almost full in this shop.

"I don seem to be nervous", I'm also saying to me just in my mind. The rotation of my favorite musical albums in my ipod is also coming to one.

Thinking like that, I noticed that a day has long hours. Twenty-four hours are never short. It might not be easy to wait for the end of the day. Till the time when I fall asleep, I usually wait for a couple of hours, lying on my bed just with looking at the laptop monitor. I surf a lot of Internet pages.

I'm still hungry and may need some more pieces of cookies. If I go home, I may be able to get real food. Recently I intentionally chose the real food rather than some junk food. Because it's more healthy. Even in the midnight, I cooked a piece of hamburger by myself. Usually some cooked rice are left in the rice pod.

I took off the earphone. Several customers have gone. Because the place of speaker is far from my place, it is not easy to hear the music from the surrounding noise.

The number of customer is less and I can hear the music gradually. Today, I have more space in my battery. I have at least thirty minutes. At the place like this, the flow of the time is so different. It might be slow but never too slow. I may be able to pay some concentration on my works. There might be fewer to have to mind in this environment. But soon I'm bored with doing something like this. I looked at the clock on my laptop. It just passed the time of hourly minute. The parking time is getting into the third hour and I have to pay three hundred yen. And this shop is going to close at the midnight. There is still one hour.

Probably because of the effect of the caffeine of the coffee, I'm in the dull mind. I thought about what I should do tonight for awhile, but I don't think of any. Unless I go home, I don't notice anything at all. I have nothing to do over here. I'd like to go home right now.

"What am I waiting for, huh?"

"I don't know. Maybe, it's time."

"Time? What is time?"

"Midnight. The turning point of a day."

"What happens then?"

"It is not end but the beginning of a new day."

Walking might be never be bad. I will get out of here.

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First of all, I've caught a cold for a couple of days. Because of that, I couldn't fine the　opportunity to write this blog. Thank you for your waiting for me to come back here.

The process from catching a cold to recovering my condition was written on my Japanese blog page. Right now, I have no plan to translate that into English.

Tonight, I have also been to my favorite cafe because I'd like to take it as the place of my recovering. So I chose the place. Anyhow, it is also good that today is Saturday. The atmosphere of the cafe is so nice than the weekday's night. People have space in time and so look like having space in their mind.

Because I'm just recovering, I'd like to just calm down. I ordered a cup of coffee because it is already Autumn. I took my laptop from my bag for my writing. After that, I spent around two hours over there just with a cup of coffee.

When I felt something on my eyes, I took a look at the view. Because I have long interval for my writing, two hours was just like one moment. Because the public parking lot is going to close at ten and my laptop was beeping from the condition of almost out of buttery, I had to get out of the cafe. If possible, I'd like to stay till the closing.

At home, just after the midnight, I can finally feel I've recovered. It was long and told me a lot. By all means, I can go on to the next week.

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This might becomes daily and usual article.

I was at a cafe, and actually got out of the place at the midnight. Now, I'm staying at the place just beside the shop. It is in the bookstore area.

I'm listening to the two kind of music. One is from the cafe and the other is from the bookstore.

It isn't very good to use a laptop in the bookstore even if I don't have many books in my hand. Because this place is cool, I'll keep staying for more while. Sooner or later, I have to go.

Somebody walked through the place just beside me when I deeply dropped into my thought. I don't know who it is. Probably I'm too sleepy and it's dangerous to stay here any more.

Today I didn't need a piece of cookie. Rather I should go home, soon, by bicycle. It seems time to go.

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It must be sometimes difficult to make some comment even about a movie in English.

I'm drinking a cup of coffee at my favorite cafe in the late evening. Looking at this small　computer monitor, I'm emitting my thoughts to somewhere. I'm actually conscious of the time　which my battery has.

I might need a sort of daily experience. That's because my English is flying.

It's so sleepy time, and I'd like to do something other. And it might also be dangerous to sharpen my nerves too much. This kind stuff didn't have any easy exit.

I need some milk in my coffee, possibly a lot more than the quantity of coffee.

I'm the man like Szpilman escaping in the Warsaw Uprising.

I don like to do something like this anymore. I'd like to fly away from here.

I also there is no paradise in the world.

I have a lot to do. I checked the process of the baseball game between Hanshin and Kyojin by my cellular phone. It is suspended.

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I need a cup of water. Because there was a bottle of Chinese tea in the refrigerator, I poured it into a glass. I brought it up to my room. That tastes good and seem to be good for my stomach. It includes some herb ingredients. I also need something different taste.

It might be also difficult to sleep tonight. But it is also true that some cool breeze is coming into my room.

By the effect of the tea, I feel better. But the periodical pain of my stomach seems to never stop. Again, I might have to count the days. The parasite can survive just seven days in human body no matter how long it is. It already passes three days. From the first point of this, I decided to wait for the next Monday to come at least. I need to put up with this for a couple of days.

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My cough hasn't gone yet. I have also stomachache. As usual, I need to pass the time lying in front of me. At this time, my only clue is music on air. By the way, I'm counting time of tonight. With each phrase, the night becomes deeper and deeper.

There are no customers around me. I'm so sleepy again. I have more than an hour over here. So slowly I can think about what to write. It is nine-thirteen. I'm also recovering little by little.
At the moment that I wrote this phrase, I felt the stomachache. That doesn't seem to have gone yet.

I ate a lot of sushi the day before yesterday. My stomachache began at that time. So the cause might be an insect. If that is, it becomes heavy problem. Because it is Friday night, I'm going to wait till Monday to go to the hospital.

I have pain on my ass because I sit on the hard wooden chair for long time. I stay here just to use up my time of the day. A moskete bite my ankle and the place is too itchy. I scratched it a lot under the sock.

While I don't notice, I was deeply getting into my thought. To make conscious of something, I tuned the volume of my ipod nano. I'm getting out of my thought gradually.

I can walk just awkwardly. Walking also teach me the condition of me. I got a cup of water without ice to ease the stomachache. It is actually effective. I know I have some unusual fever, because I measured my temperature after dinner. It indicated more than thirty-seven degrees in Celsius.

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